This Is Your Life

This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, are you who you want to be?
This is your life, is it everything you dream that it would be
When the world was younger and you had everything to lose
Switchfoot

This is my life... uncertain and bleak. I had everything I could ever wish for but it all seemed to go away. I would normally tell you that everything's just changing around me. But I got so caught up observing the world around me that I looked past myself and never really got to see me change.

Life could be so cruel. The harsh realities of it just overwhelm me. One minute you're happy, moments later you're sad. The preacher said this morning that God has His ways in catching our attention and that He is patient doing so. He'll do whatever it takes. He got Moses' attention after forty years. He got mine in a day.

I had it all but as the impermanence of this world goes I soon lost it. People that I've cared for my whole life are leaving me. Do I deserve this? Maybe I do. At least I still have my family. At least I'm secured knowing that they'll never leave me. If they do... then I'm certain that my life is really messed up.

It took a lot of heartbreaks and heartaches for God to catch my attention but eventually He did. Suddenly I found myself running back to Him seeking refuge, comfort, and strength.

"The problem with us is that we focus too much on the problem, but if we look past the problem we would find the solution." I looked past my problem and I saw God. I have wasted a lot of my thoughts in finding MY solution to the problem that I never really asked God to help me. Pride and ignorance hindered me from seeking His face. I thought I could do this all by myself but my body's weak and my spirit's frail.

God gave me a reason to smile amidst my problems because in Him I find hope. And hope is the one thing that I'm holding on too.

Everything will be fine. Everything will be okay. It's all I could hope for.

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